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Standing at the edge
of the HWY, it is easy for Carl to believe stars and humans
share the same genesis but at some juncture split and
are now both compelled toward Earth.
Humans to briefly walk
upon and then sink into its chemical engine with an expiring
sigh while the stars, trapped in a gravity as certain as mortality,
can only send their weak spectra to the reunion almost
as emissaries.
Lay below lay beneath.
Carl's breath is damp
ruddy cotton in the neon of the MOTEL sign. He desperately
wants to ruckus something up, but it's not in his nature.
Nature vs. desire as
illustrated by his breathing, by his form looking across the
highway through the moonlight not at nothing but at a wide
clearing becoming blunt hillside and then the stars again.
He keeps his weight
carefully centered betwen his boots, so as not to crack the
gravel.
"Somebody has touched
my bloodlust." Little ripples in a lava pond disturbed.
Carl feels lava flood
across and beyond the road, filling the clearing beyond
maybe twelve feet deep. From within the night comes the sound
of a truck.
"That tired man
is going to plow right through my hate."
Turning his head left
toward the now approaching headlights Carl thinks about crumple
zones and which direction tires and engine might fly, explosions
of safety glass glowing fiery and abundant. The vision is
hot at the sandy roots of his eyes. What would it take? One
step forward? Two?
Step inside.
Don't move.
Step inside.
As the truck barrels
noisily past, Carl closes his eyes and leans forward to feel
the gritty slipstream sucking at his clothing and hair, a
magnetic feeling succumbed to by random bits of paper and
other roadside debris. The sound of the truck fades.
"I can go to sleep
now."
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